The Lie Head hanging low, I weep

fear encompasses my soul

No controlling

what the mind will do

Anger swelling deep within

time to take control

Cause some pain and feel relief

only to see it doesn’t last

See the wound, feel ashamed

who’s controlling what I do?

See the scars feel the pain

so vulnerable and so fragile

Afraid and alone

yet deceiving every eye

Appearing gracious and humble

happy and at peace

such an ongoing lie

Living Being Feeling numb, do I exist?

I need to feel some pain

the blade slides slowly across my wrist

I am a living being!

I sense pain, I feel I am alive

I see anger, I see fear

I see sadness and resentment

dripping down my arm

Flee from me you soul destroyers

be flushed from my veins

The Rip In a sea of emotion

caught in a rip

pulling me, pushing me

dragging me down

please don’t let me drown

The Wound A wound once covered

once buried so deep

now exposed to the light

I’m now so aware

of what was once hidden

it now keeps me awake at night

I miss you Sitting here alone

the silence is deafening

mind racing, heart sinking

head aching, teeth gritting

No one can see the hurt

no one can feel the pain

no one can understand

it drives me insane

2 minutes, 2 hours,

2 weeks, now 2 years

time brings nothing

but more tears

Happy memories

too hurtfull to recall

a tender touch

a soft kiss no more

No more cuddles

no more talks

no more inner city

garden walks

Aches turn to numbness

too much pain to bare

existing not living

laughter is now so rare

I miss you so much

I can’t seem to erase

the way you left us

in a matter of days

I try to focus on the good

not all that is gone

I know I’ll see you again

in perhaps not too long

It’s your presence I miss

your face, your smile

your hugs, your kiss