An MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder) friend writes:

“When I was going through the worst of my therapy dealing with the sexual abuse resultant from Satanic ritual abuse as well as the dysfunctional sexual abuse in my home, one of ‘my parts’ hated herself for the things she had “done” (actually, things she was forced to do). She became suicidal due to the shame and the filth she thought covered her soul and heart.

In a wonderful insight, one day I dropped my diamond engagement ring in the mud. Because it looked disgusting, and smelled terrible, no one else would have given it a second glance. I, however, knew not only of the ring’s physical beauty, but of the deep loving significance it held. As I washed the mud and muck away, “Sara” (one of my parts) realized that no matter how much muck is thrown on you by others, you are still a diamond. Our intrinsic worth does not change due to either what we have done or what others have done to us. What a gift from God that insight has been! I wear my ring now as a reminder of my husband’s love and the love of God as mentioned in Psalm 139.

“O LORD, you have searched me and you know me….For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well….How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand….” (Psalm 139:1,13- 14, 17-18, NIV).

— Twana Biram